80% of my life....

Is spent being nausea. I don't know what to do it drives me insane. I woke up this morning at 5:50 feeling like crap. I have to be at work at 7, and I still feel like I need to throw up. I'm not pregnant and this has been going on for a long time now. Just whenever I get nausea. It could be the middle of the day. I never know when it will happen. It really really really irritates me!

What I need to do vs. what I'm doing

What I NEED to do:
balance check book
order books for school
laundry
find a place to live
pack
sale old books
clean house

What I WANT to do:
visit Maddie
have fun day with kristi and tiff before school starts
swim with bri
buy a new computer

What I AM doing:
blowing my nose every 20 seconds
laying in the bed
laying on the couch

This just stinks I have stuff I NEED to do stuff I WANT to do and I can't do anything but blow my nose and lay around cause I feel like crap!

What's wrong with me.

I went to the doctor yesterday. I thought he would tell me I have bronchitis or pneumonia. My chest hurt so bad on Wednesday night I could not even lie down. I had a cough that hurt and a stuffy nose. I got to the doctor about 8:45 or so. The receptionist tells me that he is too busy today and will not be able to see me. I was very persistent until she finally agreed to check with his nurse. She comes back and says "He will see you, but it is going to be a wait, cause he is already double booked." I said "That's fine."

I joined the ONE other patient in the waiting room and began my wait. Which turned out not to be so long cause I was actually in my car driving away at 10:58.

Before I let you know my results, here is my thought. I was sick. I was not jut coming in for a med check or something like that. I needed a doctor. Why would the book him so full that he would not be able to see real sick patients. I think slots should be intentionally left open for the sick people. I do not know days in advance that I will be sick.

On that note, I love my doctor. That's why I drove an hour away to see him. That and the fact that I do not trust doctors in this town.

Ok so I wait, then I walk the hall of shame to the scale, visit with the nurse, and wait.
Doc comes in listens to my symptoms, heart, lungs, ask some questions, makes a strange face. I say "You look a little perplexed." He says "I don't think you have and heart problems I think it may just be GERD, but I want some Xrays and and EKG to make sure."
I go around the corner to the lab. put on a paper jacket, get my XRAYS then go to the other room lay on the table and have a woman lift my boob to put wires on me. Then take my test results back to the nurse.
Doc comes in says everything is good. Just have GERD. WHAT??? I really thought I was sick. It is just heartburn what the heck? Now I feel like an idiot for not knowing the difference. He gave me some meds to help heal my esophagus and a zpack for my infection (I'm thinking sinus). I go back in 3 weeks for a followup. I made sure that I thanked him, the nurse and the receptionist for squeezing me in. I thanked the receptionist about 3 times and cracked some jokes so maybe she would think about how her rudeness was not affecting me.
Now that I know what is wrong my symptoms don't feel so bad. The whole GERD is not really even bothering me. Now it is just my nose and cough. Hopefully this zpack starts working soon. I have missed 3 days of work and the 2 days I did work only equal about 6 hours. My paycheck is going to stink.
School starts Monday so hopefully I will be feeling great by then.

On the move

Since I'm entering my senior year in college I've decided it would be best to live on my own. There will be complete silence and tons of study time. I have been searching for an inexpensive place and have not had a whole lot of luck. The places I WANT to live I can not afford. I started my search in Commerce since that is where I attend school and I would be nice to be close to campus.

When I first started my search I said "I will be happy just for a place with a bed, and the Internet. That is all I need. Now I'm being just a little to picky. I found a place in Commerce that is pretty much dump, I thought maybe it was in the ghetto. After calling the police department and checking the crime rate I have found my new home. I need to go back and sign a lease and all that jazz, but I'm pretty sure this is the place.

After the day of looking in Commerce I looked in Sulphur Springs since I will continue to work here. I will spend 3 days a week working and 3 days in school so either town I would still have the same amount of commuting. I set out yesterday in Sulphur Springs most everything was full there were some that I called on that still have not called me back. I found out later that day at work that there was a shooting at that apartment complex, I'm thinking that is a no go. There was an apartment I looked at in my price range, but so not in my comfort range. This happens to be the complex where a murder took place several years back. I kept from even calling or going over there because I knew that, but I went anyways. That also is a big fat NO!

The Commerce Ghetto is looking best! One thing that makes me feel good about this pick is the fact that some really nice new apartments are right next door.

I have a cold, or allergy attack or I'm dying. Not sure which. I called in sick to work today. Hopefully a day in bed will kick this out. My chest hurts, my throat hurts, I have a nasty dry cough and my shoulders up hurt. I have taken so much medicine if my doctor or pharmacist knew they would probably yell at me. I just want it to all go away!

Is that really P.E.?

I need one more PE class to graduate. I have tried to take it at commerce but I can't find one to fit into my schedule. I don't know why I didn't think of it before, but I can take one at a Junior college and transfer it to TAMU. What a great idea! Today after work I went to the Junior college here in town and register for a PE class cause they had bowling online. When I was registering she asked if I knew what class I wanted to take and showed me a list and there was a class called "Drug use and abuse." It was a PE class. I registered for it. I thought since I work in the drug industry It would be fun to learn.

I love what I do. I love to learn about drugs and what they are for and how people abuse them. Hopefully this class will not only give me a PE credit but also help me at work.

When people ask me what I do I like to tell them I'm a drug dealer! ha!

The olympics

I want to I do I really want to be one of those people that just love and live for the Olympics I even got excited that they were coming on. Counted down the days, tried to watch the opening ceremony but there was just a Chinese man talking. I turned them on the other day to watch and just could not get into it. I just don't think I will ever be a big sports fan, and it is not because of lack of trying.

Tonight I went to my moms we were just hanging out in the living room when she blurts out "Oh lets watch the Olympics." We started watching them and I really did enjoy it. We watched some diving and volleyball. I don't know if it was because I was enjoying the sports or if it was the fact that I was having a good time with mom and Madalyn either way it was a nice night.

Happy land is gone.

Remember how I put a post the other day about how I was so happy! Well things took a change and now I'm not so happy. What makes it even worse is everyone is gone and doing things and I'm stuck in this town and can't stop thinking about it. I knew the happy times would not last!

Summer is HERE!

My Summer is officially here, well for the next 2 weeks. I just finished my last Summer class. I made a C. I almost had a B but I missed a few to many questions on the final. I wish I had done better, but since I NEVER studied I consider that C pretty darn good.

Sad, broken things

I often find things that I just LOVE and I usually wear them out. Once they are worn out I get really really sad. I remember when I was 15 or 16 I had a pair of jeans I just LOVED I ripped a hole in the back of them and had to throw them away. Later I had another pair and split the front open. Kristi's mom patched them up and I was able to wear them for a LONG time. I had a pair of shorts that I got in the 7th grade. I had those patched so many times and I think I wore them well into high school. They were pajama shorts.

Ok so my point......I have in the last few days worn out some dear things. I bought a pair of 100% organic cotton pajama pants at Wal-mart. I loved them so much I went back and bought another. I have a gray pair and a pink pair. Well yesterday I was in the kitchen and my gray pair got caught on the drawer or something and it ripped a hole. I am so so mad! BUT, I'm still going to wear them!

On to worn out #2. My computer. This one I just don't get. I don't understand how this thing can be breaking already. I think I may have just bought a lemon. It has crashed twice I think. I have only had it for about 3 years. My speakers are busted so it always sounds like the radio when the channel doesn't come in good. And now.....my Y key has fallen off.

That's right I just have a little nub there to push. WHAT??? WHY??? I just do not understand.

I am now in the market for a new laptop. Have any suggestions? I currently have a Gateway. I really want an imac, but I don't think it is in my price range. I can get a discount on Dell because of work, but everyone I know with a Dell has had problems.

Tell me what is a good brand? Do you know of any good deals?

Today......

I am Happy!!! I can honestly say that right now today, I'm completely happy! I love it, I don't think I have felt this way in awhile maybe never. There is no particular reason and I probably will not be tomorrow, but Today I'm HAPPY!!!!

Baby Shower

My cousin Annette is expecting a baby girl. My sister and I gave her a baby shower yesterday. We had a good time. My chocolate fondue did not work.....AGAIN. Here are some pictures. By the way I guess the shower was so great...her water broke in the middle of the night and the baby was born 20 days early! Peyton Constance ( I think I'm spelling that right). What makes this baby so special is the fact that she was a TOTAL surprise and they had decided to stop after the 4th boy!

The area I made for people to put their gifts.

The food table. The hole in the back left is where the fondue fountain that did not work was suppose to go. :(

My cupcake, they were a big hit!

One of my favorite cousins, and the princess for the day!My mom, Maddie, Annette (Tennette, what Micheal and I call her! :)) and our Aunt Lynda

My grandmother, cousin samantha, Aunt darlene, and my sister Selena in the back. Tennettes 4 boys. They were not at the Shower this is just a picture Tennette emailed me. Garrett is in the green and he just turned 14. He is taller than me!

Me very tuckered out! I was just resting my eyes. I really think I have a problem. I seriously do not know anyone that just falls asleep like I do. Really I was just resting my eyes in this picture cause I saw Brie with the camera and I shut my eyes then I opened them and got up quickly after she took the picture. Although I wish I could have taken a nap.

A little trip

A bonding time just me and my mom!

My mom was on vacation from work all last week. She came to visit me on Wednesday. She wanted to take just a small little trip. We can't afford anything big. I showed her around my campus and did the things I needed to get done before school starts. Then she got a wild hair and wanted to drive to Oklahoma, so we did. We drove to a town called Yuba, we never saw anything but the volunteer fire department. We at lunch in Durant then drove over to Hugo and back down to Paris. I have never been to Paris neither had mom so it was neat. The next morning we went to the movies and saw Mama Mia, it was VERY good! I bought the soundtrack the next day. We had a tour of an old home belonging to General Sam Maxey (I think that was his name). We saw the "Eiffel Tower." We looked for some monument, but never found it. Then we headed over to Honey Grove. This was the town my mothers grandmother was born in. She was born in 1883......I think that was the year. No, I think it was 1888 and the church we saw was 1883. The library had a book that had all these OLD newspaper articles in it. I loved reading them. They were very funny. Here are a few pictures. It was such a fun time just being with my mom. I miss her so much.
This is my school. I have wanted a picture in this spot since I started school here but I have never had someone to take the picture. I wish I had looked a little better. Oh well.

A close up!

While we were taking the other picture all these ducks (I think that is what they are) came up to me. I felt like the lady on Mary Poppins.

I played the Oklahoma state lotto........and didn't win a dime!

Where is the beef??

I went to the grocery store tonight to buy some ground beef and..........THERE WAS NONE! I pulled my buggy up to the section and it was EMPTY. I mean not one package of ground beef, not even the big round rolled packages. I was on the phone with my cousin and said "Was there some sort of recall?" "Am I on the twilight zone?"

I grabbed one of the 5 ground chuck patties that was left and took it to the counter. I asked the checker if there was a reason there was no ground beef. She says "I don't know someone asked that earlier." Then asked the manager who informed us both "We just ran out."

Some where in this town there is a BIG party, and I was not invited! ha!

I fixed it.

I had a counter on my page and apparently it messed up cause I could not even go to the site to log on and see my counts. I deleted it off my page and presto it worked I sure hope no one else has had trouble seeing my life's little details.

UPDATE: Turns out everyone with that has that counter is having the same problem with their page. Must have just happened. CRAZY!

something is wrong.

I was trying to look at my blog and my Internet will not let me. hmmmmm I will now spend the rest of the night trying to figure this out. I have lots of updates and good pictures to post soon as mom emails them to me, BUT first I must fix the problem.